tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3333658317017893962024-02-01T22:01:58.714-05:00Life on DaysUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger288125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-40874104734252381642021-04-09T09:15:00.008-04:002021-04-09T11:50:50.075-04:00CoyotesLast night I had the night terrors again. M woke and shook me out of them. I was screaming ‘you crazy bitch!’ She thought I was say 'rich' and not 'bitch', but without a doubt I was saying 'bitch', and the dream was all very real to me.
<br>Later in the night I woke up again, this time to the sound of the crying coyotes close by to the house. They were real, there is no doubt about it.
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-19860622537966964652019-07-26T11:26:00.002-04:002019-07-26T11:28:52.144-04:00There is...There is promise in the morning light.<p>
There is a memory of a dense forest with whispering winds.<p>
There is a prostitute on the outskirts of Tampa who won't take 'no' for an answer.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-72090811829529155392017-02-01T18:16:00.000-05:002017-02-01T18:16:46.876-05:00It's Getting Heavy <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiI8_PONNIKSMybN7HO-CKNee-1Odhg2VqfmRfXbaoH9E2PFTjhbzcLsC29p1-cSvWXs-_DOCYHQbZMxWNSZmNRAc6AhSjhm4zSWShP7J6zuXPshtuTY-ZQk9I8wUWHDj9SfJmyIu-Cp__J/s1600/Lettuce.jpg" imageanchor="1" ><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiI8_PONNIKSMybN7HO-CKNee-1Odhg2VqfmRfXbaoH9E2PFTjhbzcLsC29p1-cSvWXs-_DOCYHQbZMxWNSZmNRAc6AhSjhm4zSWShP7J6zuXPshtuTY-ZQk9I8wUWHDj9SfJmyIu-Cp__J/s320/Lettuce.jpg" width="320" height="318" /></a>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-18683997767547717402017-02-01T18:13:00.002-05:002017-02-01T18:13:33.444-05:00Only the Penitent Man...<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9eGkwyNAbnVUVoB4N8UbRM8jF-MomzmRz_ELlMSpH4gSAbgrsJb_2JRROPvFj7gahGVc2dG8euil4F1Rb_WlVSPp1V0Pz_WryeqFDfSviJoacEc-ar_ZJSVXuriqclSLFnECiejsN2PjJ/s1600/P_Man.jpg" imageanchor="1" ><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9eGkwyNAbnVUVoB4N8UbRM8jF-MomzmRz_ELlMSpH4gSAbgrsJb_2JRROPvFj7gahGVc2dG8euil4F1Rb_WlVSPp1V0Pz_WryeqFDfSviJoacEc-ar_ZJSVXuriqclSLFnECiejsN2PjJ/s320/P_Man.jpg" width="303" height="320" /></a>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-64469553785155208232016-01-22T11:56:00.001-05:002020-01-17T14:59:30.403-05:00Honey LoveThere was a time when you said I was your ‘one and only’. A time when your words blew threw me like a rolling wind. A time when we lived together. We had a small apartment that overlooked a church yard. Most nights we'd sleep on the kitchen floor. I remember you always insisted that it was the most spiritual place in the house.
Then came the time when you left. The time when you made it crystal clear that you were done. I watched as you went out that cold November morning to get a carton of milk and never came back. A few hours later I followed after you - thinking to myself that you'd always been a little bit too good for this world.
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-57690559251166225472016-01-21T09:47:00.003-05:002020-01-17T15:02:03.276-05:00From Space Mountain with LoveI can see us looking at each other in the back seat of the Buick on the way to Grove City. You had just ridden on Space Mountain and it had really blown your mind. You droned on and on about the twists and the turns, the breathtaking sound effects and laser show. I pretended to be interested, but I was really smoldering on the inside with jealously. I didn't find it fair that you were able to spend your summers at the great theme park and enjoy all of the amusements. All while I had to shovel shit 24/7 at Jenson's County Farm. It just didn't seem right.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-74657879736633285232016-01-19T09:42:00.003-05:002016-02-09T17:30:21.153-05:00The Inheritance The chainsaw I inherited from grandfather felt smooth and powerful in my hands. It's weight was surprisingly light. The old man must have had a real time with this machine. I could picture him in his sleeveless t-shirt - a yellow bandanna covering his sweaty face as he sliced deep into the great sycamores of our county.
I tried to measure the impact he had had on the people in his life. The wild way he would flail about when he was happy. It reminded me of a naive school girl. His giddy high pitched laugh, his bashful blush when complimented, his slack hands fluttering like a baby bird. Most people will recall his enchanting gait - the effortless mince as he carried himself about on his daily errands to town. But the one thing I will always hold on to, the one thing that keeps me in awe - was his unapologetic hatred of all written words and his complete dismissal of any hard facts or 'devil's science' as he liked to call it.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-68097553539838470792014-03-13T20:15:00.001-04:002017-01-27T14:20:09.607-05:00Further Dictation<div>The limo dropped me off at Arlington square and I walked over to Horton park with sky-high hopes. As I walked I thought about my dear companions. Some of them can confuse and surprise me in alternating breaths. They all seem to be dancing down the great conga line to nowhere. I cannot tell if they are enjoying the ride, or just happy to be seen strutting their stuff in the sweet soul train of life. I will tell myself it is the latter, although I really have no idea. I often wait until they aren't looking to do my deepest detective work. Going unnoticed I analyze their expressions and movements. The slight twitch of the jaw, the inflection with which they pronounce their dinner orders. All of these 'observations' go into my data journal. They are later dictated into my tape recorder for further analysis. It is then and only then that they will be placed in my archives - which I can tell you are very well organized. </div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-56733680995652556992014-03-13T20:06:00.001-04:002014-05-09T10:57:25.105-04:00Garden PartyThe well diggers arrived just in time for egg salad and sweetened lemonade. We set up lunch under the great oak tree near Norma's memorial stone. The day was fresh with jasmine dancing upon the whispering winds. The roads to town had recently opened, allowing the mail and other deliveries to arrive as normal. Everyone was having a remarkable time. Even old Merl, who can be so humdrum about these sorts of things. Mrs. Gallager brought her famous fig pudding for all to enjoy, and enjoy we did. Friedrick was doing his famous impressions for the workmen when all of a sudden a flash of lightning and the roar of mighty thunder startled us all. The sky opened up to a hellfire red and I can vividly recall the gnawing terror as those dark grey rains came crashing down upon the scene. Oh how I will never forget the expression on the face of sweet cousin Alphonse as he ran for shelter. I still see the tears in his eyes as he slipped and fuddled about in the muck. He lay shivering as I ran to his aid. Fate came crashing around us as I cradled the young boy, praying to the heavens to cease this relentless barrage. It must have rained for the better part of the afternoon for the next thing I remember was waking up alone with my clothes in tatters and my mind a complete mess. Thus putting an end to our one time glorious and very much unexpected garden party. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-47662642083718283612014-03-03T22:24:00.002-05:002014-05-09T10:07:20.921-04:00Cutting Loose on the Road to FreedomDear Jimothy watched in wonder as the lazy sky opened up to a fresh crispy blue. Fragrant sea air floated like soft mist from the nearby coast. He felt the sun's warmth on his skin for the first time in many months. He felt the rush of his thick northern blood pulse through his temples as he thought of Melinda and the cult she had once tried to get him to join. He remembered her brittle little words and how she was always chasing down a new 'head change'. It always seemed that she just couldn't get things right, or maybe she just didn't want to. It wasn't impossible, it just wasn't in her nature. It was her desire to live an "abnormal life" - and that very desire drew her away from most folks. Especially the ones who loved her. Up until now he had never really thought too much about it. Maybe the sea air had helped clear his mind; helped put things into perspective. Back east there were just so many unanswered questions, so many things left to wonder. He lost count of the number of times that the voices in his head told him to go off and do wild things. The same contradictory voices that told him everything was going to be alright. They mocked his calculated movements and would often times suggest that at any given moment, he was most certainly going to go totally ape-shit.
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-12346227366069431442014-02-28T12:10:00.001-05:002014-05-09T15:15:56.645-04:00Oh These Princely RobesOh dear god grant me wisdom. All of these princely robes make it challenging for me to select the perfect one for the royal feast. I pray that my fine garments will please the court, as I really need to shine this time around. Oh yes, I will do my best dance and prance about in my princely robes. The guests will raise their glasses and marvel in delight as a move and gyrate about the throne room. So let’s just say that when it comes to royal banquets and styles that some guys just ‘get it’, and I am one of those guys.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-25891544901475000512014-02-24T14:31:00.002-05:002014-05-09T15:20:03.023-04:00Sweet PapaThe to-do list that Papa had put together was totally useless. Form the beginning it seemed like our little family vacation was totally doomed. The first day found our alabaster flesh burned like crisp bacon by the blazing Mexican sun. We were all miserable after that. Papa caught the worst though. He lay on the bed in his white briefs, wrapped in a poly-cotton sheet, soaked thru with his own sweat and filth. He wouldn’t stop mumbling and groaning. It was agony for us all. The garbage can next to his bed reeked and badly needed emptying. It all began earlier that morning at the all-you-can-eat breakfast buffet where Papa had insisted on trying the ‘Mexicali Smoked Salmon’. We had all strongly advised him against it. The salmon had a rainbow glisten as it sat perspiring away in the high Mexican heat. But Papa “Just had to have it”. Now he was paying the high-price, as Montezuma ravaged away at his bowels and tormented his mind-tank.
What hurt the most wasn’t the sunburn or the repulsive stench of Papa’s bile – it was the deep sting of seeing our father reduced to such a crumpled and lowly being. He had always been our central figure of strength, but now it was almost impossible to not to pity him and feel a deep sense of shame that he had brought upon our house.
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-31659174061607944482014-02-19T10:56:00.002-05:002014-05-09T15:21:10.780-04:00Comit to the MystiqueOur sacred circle is awoken a dawn. We rise and greet the morning sun with inspired breath. Each of us stands shrouded in our princely robes, drawn in by nature’s dazzling show of brilliant color, generous bloom and bird song. We are gathered in a sphere around the great pyre, staring into the flames with mouths agape and hands to the sky. I can hear Brother Maynard to my left as he pops opens a fresh can of Pringles. The powdery odor of sour cream and onion dust float through the air and fill my nostrils with sweet fragrance. Although my empty belly moans and my mouth waters for the savory taste, I shake off the distraction. I am set on my task - for soon will be the time for ultimate sacrifice, soon we will honor the gods with our lives. I can see the sky open as I prepare to be reborn. The signal is given and I dance wildly into the flames, sharp pain and then cosmic relief as my soul floats upward. From this new vantage point I look down upon the entire scene and I can see Brother Maynard, with his childlike grin, munching deep into those crisp potato snacks. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-70031327228929629712013-11-04T16:39:00.000-05:002017-02-02T12:24:28.395-05:00The Episode on the Western SlopeThey had to spend the afternoon on the western slope about one hundred yards below the great ridge. Many of them were exhausted from dehydration and days of walking without proper rest. Most of them didn’t think they would make it out of there alive. It was Jenkins who first started to show signs of complete cognitive meltdown. He was the first one to really crack. Around noon he began to recite the worst poetry any of them had ever heard. The poetry, if it could be called that, was so offensive that some of the men vomited up whatever was left in their nearly empty stomachs. It didn’t help any that Jenkins had an effeminate southern drawl that was extremely annoying to begin with. They all took turns trying to silence Jenkins, but nothing worked. They could not believe that Jenkins would have the gall to project such filth into the atmosphere at a time like this. The only one who wasn’t surprised was Till, who knew deep down that Jenkins was completely maladjusted. He had cheated his way into the service - clearly fooling all of the staff psychologists. Somehow he had convinced everyone that he was fit for duty. Till was the only one who knew that Jenkins should never have been with them. He knew that Jenkins was a liability, that he could put the whole outfit in jeopardy. He regretted not turning him into the senior staff before they left HQ. Many of the men would live on to tell stories from their experiences. The majority of those men still wake up some nights in fits of unholy terror with Jenkins’s god-awful poetry echoing in their ears as if heard for the first time. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-4610824839080104382013-08-31T18:37:00.001-04:002017-02-02T12:26:03.853-05:00All Over Your Hands, and Sweet FaceChester stoked around with the poker trying to rouse new life from the tiny embers. The orange glow across his freshly shaven face made him look half demonic. the shadows danced and played in his dark eyes and wrinkled brow. 'She means to take everything Brian, everything-damned-thing.' His eyes passed through Brian and focused on the ancient Grecian statue that stood on the opposite bookshelf. He thought to himself that the Greek goddess was mocking him in this agony. She was probably right in doing so. 'Well I do feel for you, but I think we all know you had this coming. You've clowned around for far too long and now the chickens have come home to roost. You have sunk to new lows my four fingered friend.' Chester stood in disbelief and pondered his friends cold words. Some god damned friend Brian had turned out to be. Just when Chester needed him most, Brian was there to kick him in the neck. If there was any humility left in the room it had just gone out with the flames, vanished along with the deep smoke.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-9124065809281238122013-08-29T11:37:00.002-04:002014-05-09T15:26:39.791-04:00Waiting in the WingbackI climbed through the window above the garage and made myself comfortable in Gretel’s armchair. How long will she keep me waiting? I had to remind myself that I was doing the best I could, that this was just another day, and that she was going to keep me here, waiting in limbo. I eased back into the chair and put my leather boots up on the ledge of the windowsill. Sleep overtook me and I fell deep into darkness. She must have came in at some point in the night. When I woke up I had noticed that at the foot of the chair was a silver-serving tray. On it, was a plate of congealed gruel, a lock of hair wrapped in a purple ribbon and a note that read, ‘It’s your life, and you can do what you want.’Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-88360572053407282562013-08-22T09:30:00.001-04:002013-08-22T16:50:19.130-04:00Written Are The WordsI thanked Marcel for the almonds and was underway before sundown. I was on the edge of an extraordinary happiness. Walking the earth in my soft silken slippers, feeling the rich contour beneath my feet – truly connected to this mortal world. I sauntered up to Shannon’s doorstep as the deep heat of the night closed in. It churned the butter within my soul and knew that it was good. I thought to myself, 'Would I find the strength?' I knew that I had the power within, but would the good words magically fly from my month like sweet honey? Or would I stumble like a the fidgety Muppet of olden time? Would she consume me and be reborn? Oh she must consume! And like the great feast that is devoured by the masses, she would soon feast upon me and feel pure. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-67808369348226640022013-08-21T16:32:00.001-04:002014-05-09T15:28:19.898-04:00Return to FormI have come to a decision. I shall wear my black silken shroud when I go fishing with Father this Sunday.
Under the April sun, I will tell him of the lush field journey, of how my skin became crisp from wind and sea splash. I will speak of the million rainy days that have swept across my eyes. I will sing the praises of the ancient caverns where the sky fell in upon me. When all is said and done I will hang my head over the waters edge to see my sunken reflection. Then Father will light the torch that will guide us back to the Subaru with our bountiful catch.
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-47089974728958894202013-04-02T17:46:00.003-04:002013-04-02T17:48:38.102-04:00God's Work“I didn’t kick them out, they kicked themselves out.” I said this to the banquet host with his mutton chop attitude and his whimsical lisp. It was my job as Hall Inspector to make sure that all of the preparations had been made and that everything ran tip top. I explained to the host that I had to boot those youngsters out - they were horsing around in the lavatory, playing grab-ass with the soaps and towels. We simply could not have that kind of behavior in this establishment. The 50 plus guests in the hall deserved better. I remember the confusion peppered across their faces as they watched me curse out the boy’s families for allowing their children to behave in such a way. It soon got to that critical point in the evening when the guests began to show the telltale signs of hunger. They stirred in their seats, picked at their nails and teeth anxiously waiting for the great feast to begin. Please allow me to take a step back at this point and enlighten everyone as to what I was going through my mind – lets just say that I felt remarkable in my own way. I knew that I was in control and that it was now my duty to strut my stuff. I had applied myself over years of training for this very moment - my finest hour on the industry’s biggest stage. I walked down the long buffet table inspecting the food, leaning in close here and there to take a whiff of pudding or scalloped potatoes, whatever it may be. I placed my hands on the great swan ice sculpture and said a prayer. I brushed off some dust on the white table cloth and made sure the napkin rings were finely polished. When I blew my whistle and everyone filed into line I felt true contentment. And when I stood with my hands folded before me and watched as the guests happily lashed into the strawberry pie and chicken croquettes, I knew that I was doing God’s work.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-30311899697414379192013-03-28T11:47:00.001-04:002013-03-29T16:06:50.505-04:00Shifting the Strength From WithinI got off the train slightly dazed and blurred out. Was my vision getting worse? It had to be - I couldn’t seem to read the signs as well as I once did. I really had to squint and try to focus. This caused my jaw to slack and my brow to furrow - made me look like a real jackass. The thought bothered me as I climbed the steps and lumbered up to the street corner. I waited for the light to change, catching sight of a woman with aqua-green colored hair and leopard skin pants standing on the opposite corner. She was awkwardly smoking a cigarette. Not really savoring the deep drags like a champion seasoned smoker would do. She was more of a ‘peckishy’ smoker, holding the cigarette far from her body and dodging the smoke that blew off the end – reminded me of an epileptic limbo contestant. I was momentarily distracted by a bus filled with European hippies that cruised past, their faces pressed to the glass starring at the awe-inspiring city scene. I thought about giving them the middle finger, but decided against it. Instead I bought a churro from an immigrant woman and sauntered into work an hour and a half late. When I got in, it was Carlson who first commented on the cinnamon and sugar that surrounded my lips and was dusted upon my lapels. I thought to myself, ‘The gall on this one!’ but I didn’t say anything. I simply marched over to the coffee machine and punched in the order for a latte with 2 sugars and fake crème juice. Carlson was standing with his arms crossed when I approached my desk. He wanted to know what I was planning to make for this years ‘Bake Your Face Off Luncheon’. The luncheon has been a tradition at Lewis & Louis for the past 15 years. Employees bring in their best confections and a panel of hand selected tasting judges decide which one is numero uno. All of this takes place in the board room which is filled with televisions playing the hit Travolta and Cage film Face Off on constant loop. The highly ambivalent judges take ages to decide a champion. Last year they deliberated for 15 hours before naming a winner, the whole process was so long and brutal that it nearly cost me my sanity. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-46319224949855652022013-03-14T18:16:00.001-04:002013-03-15T10:04:12.564-04:00Artisan ScoreHe read aloud from an autographed copy of 'Chicken Soup for the Soul’. Everyone on the Q57 bus couldn’t help but hear his wild guttural drawl. All the way from Crescent Street to Ditmars Road he roared on. Now and then he would pause to drink deep from his thermos of hot cider. He said it kept him warm in the cold times. He said he liked it smooth, crisp – ‘the sweet nectar sip’ is what he called it. Wiping the juice from his unkempt goatee and onto his dirty rugby-striped sleeve, he showed the riders of the bus his battle scared neck and waved his pinky finger at those who he deemed ‘the Un-naturals’ His thorough description of Mandrake Root Stew and his ghastly inappropriate hand gestures left little up to the imagination. It all made me reflect on my own choices as a man. And as I sat in the back of the bus greedily eating my lamb gyro slathered in tzatziki, I couldn’t help but admire his genius and otherworldly quality. When all was said and done, the whole scene left me contemplating the end of time and begging for an encore. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-3413551107275822842013-03-11T17:41:00.000-04:002017-02-02T12:34:20.690-05:00Somewhere Over VirginiaThey said the flight from Atlanta was only supposed to take three hours. Just enough time to have a snooze before heading back in the office. I settle in and close my eyes. I overhear the man sitting next to me say to his wife, “When we get back to New York I’d like it if we could talk more about god and abstraction.” Soon I drift into dreamland. I find myself standing in an art gallery filled with tourists. Silver haired people with thick framed glasses are all mumbling and milling about, pointing at the work on the walls.
I walk up to a large multi-color abstract painting and try to wrap my mind around its meaning. I take in the strange shapes and textures. I tilt my head and attempt to interpret the gestural forms spattered across the canvas. There is a moment where I think I understand, but instantly I am back to square one, searching for answers. Completely overwhelmed, I begin to panic - a concerned look crosses my face. I feel the pragmatic hemisphere of my brain begin to throb, then all of a sudden I hear it snap. Maybe it is the divine beauty of the work or simply the idea of abstraction itself, but I cannot handle any of it. My mind is melting into itself - I have now completely metabolized. The world opens up to me in bright flashes of molten light. I clearly see the rage that I cannot control. Floating above the whole scene and looking down, I see my physical myself, ape-like and trashing - tearing paintings from the walls while screaming to heaven on high. I am running in circles flailing my arms – howling at the patrons as they stare at me in total disbelief. It takes seven museum guards to pin me down. I think they inject me with something, but I really can’t be sure. In an instant I am sucked back into reality, just as the plane sets down at LaGuardia and the overhead chime pings out it's piercing call. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-27736584146571533912012-12-29T12:03:00.001-05:002012-12-29T15:13:01.035-05:00The Prayers of Old"What more can we give?" I asked this to Padre as we walked down the path to the great reservoir. It was a mile downhill from the road as the footpath opened up and snaked its way through the pine woods. He grumbled as he walked in his old leather sandals. His feet black with dirt and soot. He seemed to be in great discomfort as we made the long dissent downhill. "You can give it all to the service. You and your family can come to the seminars and pray. Just like the others. Just like your parents did." He couldn't be more serious. I said how there are things I simply will not do, and going to the seminars was most definitely one of those things - how god in his glory understood my amazing ability to dream and dream deep. He nodded his response. It was ten minutes later when we arrived at the rock cliff 50 yards above the reservoir. Padre took off his robes and fully stripped down. He gave me a long and solemn look - then with a giant war cry he hurled himself from the cliff. I watched as he executed a flawless cannon ball, finishing with a majestic splash - his aged body enveloped into the dark green water below. I stood for a moment before turning to make my way back up to where I had parked the Buick. Shelly was making cube steak for dinner and I knew that it would be a nightmare if I didn't get back by 7. I thought of Padre's words as I trudged back up the slope. I guess we all could give a little more, but who has the time? I feel like they had taken every morsel from mother and father, leaving them with very little to retire on. It didn't matter anymore - we all end up in the same place anyhow. I didn't mind Padre's words once I was back in the car. I turned on the a.m. radio and the local station was playing some honkytonk solo piano - it was all jangly and suited my mood just fine. I leaned into the gas pedal just as the sun setting on the horizon - felt the wonder wash over me as my eyes closed and the sleep brought me under. I saw Shelly standing there. She was saying something and lifting me in her arms. My dreams fully took hold and pushed me further out to sea. I swore to myself I could hold on.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-37459076211557372892012-12-19T15:38:00.001-05:002017-02-03T11:51:47.327-05:00Room TempI eased into the back booth and ordered the usual – char grilled burger, black coffee and a side of mayonnaise. Sitting there, randomly pondering over the events of the day – rifling through all of the memories that made me pulse and tremble with joy. OK wait, that is only half true - there was a rhyme and a reason to what I was doing there... I could almost find the answer - it was on the tip of my tongue. In all honesty looking back, I think I was just searching for a deeper purpose for my days. Still, time went by with some thoughts half-realized and some dreams that would often became ideas, which in turn would become something more - sometimes something tangible. All of them spider-webbing into each-other while simultaneously going off on untraceable tangents. Instead of falling deeper down into my own mental rabbit hole I decided it was time to stop myself. Stop running around in circles. 'I can get through this!' I thought as I proudly dipped the burger into the tiny silver mayonnaise bucket. The now room temperature mayo was semi-transparent and beginning to form sweat beads. With a blank stare on my face and my eyes half open, I gnawed into that dry pressed beef paddy slathered in rich mayo - pausing here and there to sip my coffee. Something about the scene was truly classic and shockingly eye-opening - it all boiled in my blood like hot grease. Perhaps it was the wafting smell of the deep fryer mingling with the cheap perfume that the cashier wore. More than likely it was the overwhelming sensation of heightened spiritual euphoria – as if everything that ever could be washed over me in a single instant. I was saturated with ultimate jubilation - laughing to myself as I took another greedy bite. Minutes went by before I heard the woman in the booth behind me feeding coins into the tabletop jukebox. Then, as if blasted in the face with a handful of raisins, <i>A Whiter Shade of Pale</i> came blaring through the sound system, full crank. I raised my arms to heaven on high, smiling into the great beyond as tears came streaming down my freshly shaven face, mingling with the gelatinous mayonnaise on my plate. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-333365831701789396.post-32541869485880474372012-12-12T12:28:00.001-05:002012-12-12T12:28:34.185-05:00Transient MethodFidgety fingers sliced on sardine can. Blood mix with fishy oil for babes to drink. Grant them the strength to shine. Give them the gift of highway foresight. They will require blessings on the road to vagabond glory. Now back to the sardine can – did you get your tetanus shot? I can’t remember. It just dawned on me and I couldn’t stand to loose you over something so silly. After all you’ve been through! You should have used your rusty blade. Many bean cans you pried open in the ditches along the great roads with that knife. Many Sterno flames warmed your feasts. Many a coin was placed into the palm of your fingerless-gloved hand. While all those pedestrians sped up to pass you by. Did they ever read the fine print on your cardboard sign? Maybe if they did they would understand. But you wrote it so damn fast, trembling in the cold with a dried out Sharpie – it’s really no wonder that no one got the message.
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